November 8, 2010
It was about this time seven years ago when I was in college and I met my husband. He was a devout Catholic. He knew what he believed in and he believed it strongly. We had only been dating for a short time before he brought up how important it was to share the Catholic faith with his future spouse. We weren’t even close to talking about marriage at this point, but I could tell that there was no place in his life for me if I wasn’t going to share his faith.
I was baptized Catholic and led a good life; I thought that was good enough. It wasn’t until he asked me late one night to go say a rosary with him at the campus chapel that I realized how little I knew, how much I had to learn and how intimidated I was with the formality of religion, especially one with so much structure and history.
I told him that I had no idea how to say the rosary or even its significance. He assured me that he had a pamphlet that I could use to help me through the rosary and that he’d help me if I needed and/or wanted the help.
Off we went in the middle of the night to the chapel. I walked into the small chapel and my heart started to pound. What was I doing here? I didn’t know what to do and because of that, I didn’t feel like I would be reverent enough. We knelt down together and he handed me the pamphlet. He gave me his rosary and I began to pray along side him. I remember a feeling of accomplishment mixed with a feeling of confusion and anxiety as I prayed. I closed my eyes, tried to remove all my doubt and hesitation and just submit to God. I gave that rosary everything I had in me. It had been years since I had stepped into a church, but after we were done, the feeling of intimidation faded away like a shadow in the night.
Since that time, I have been confirmed, married, and will soon have my son baptized in the Catholic Church. I look back on that experience and I realize that it doesn’t necessarily take a lifetime of rosaries to show your reverence. Sometimes it just takes one to guide a lifetime.
"It is better to say one Our Father fervently and devoutly than a thousand with no devotion and full of distraction
." -- St. Edmund